20040831

;alsdkjf;lasdjfsljdf how come nowadays i cant stand my closest friends.

today was watching tv, for the first few tiems in my life, i saw that advert, the one with the swedish guy telling the crowds to be queit cuz they were angry the judges made a mistake. really respected him, he wasnt angry at all, he was like, so queit, just humbly taking the prize and helping the judges. then saw another advert, adverts are nicer than the actual show, the one where they show all the atheletes failing but still cotninuing, those guys also got my respect manns. they put in their all and had such sportsmanship. no sore losers. teh guy doing the gym impressed me the most la, ok, all gymnasts have good sportsmanship. swedish guy was a gymnast too. then er, he fell down but just calmly got up and carried on. respect them like shit la. thehurdles people too, eventhough they fall all that, they still continue, poo i salute them. olympics ending tonight 2.15 am. arghh. so sad, no more sportsmanship to see. ahah k whatever. theyw ere SO PRO LA, they didnt let ANYTHING stop them. so pro la, resoulute. crap go olympics

does the word determination come from deter? that would be opposite meanings.

(: so happy, ok so im not, just feeling no feelingy. a;lsdkfsdljkf so boring la today. woke up at 7+ and pok not awake. wanted to call but im gd so i didnt call. till after he wokr up. good ME. has such nice dreams last night. ya right, i dont quite remember. ahaha, dang dang dnag dang adnag dang adng a dang
teachers day dont wanna go back anywhere, wanna go OUT for a MOVIE. maybe the teachers will understand. hmm, so stressful la njc, work whole day whole night, no sleep everyday must go back sch no time for social activities, just work go home work work sleep wake up work go sch work break work work work, they'll understand! thanks! ilu`

my new war cry as a preemptive agains tpok. GEKKI! asdf;ljsd GEKKI!!!!! ahahahahaaaa..............................................
err, got somthing to tell anyone who reads anyway. errrrrr. dont know la, just been hiding for so long but shouldnt really have hidden it, its for everyone to know anyway, and its nth to be scared of in the first place,
weeeelll
poks pregnant, with my baby. ahaha, now you know, be expectin it, on the 31st on october. so must get presents for him ok? its tough giving birth, get lotsa presents for pok. and if you want to, not compulsory, liyan, and before that adrianni and maybe thang one day before. all optional but for my lil` babby.(:

asdofjsdofjsdjf today i skipped last three hours of sch, was SICK. hurhurr. ok, was supposed to go home after bio test but too lazy, so asked mum to come pick meup at lunch, then got home. then SLEPT till 8. ahaha, supposedly got calls from tnt but dno, she got wrong number or smth. heh, oh yes, i just remembered, IM 14! ahahahaha, always thought i was 15. hahahaha, poks birthday! liyans birthday! suihangs birthday! thangs birthday! adriannis birthday! oh mann. im broke alr. grace and wenshu too, and those i dotn know. OH WAIT. october is AFTER september aint it? ok. dumb me, i thought it was august then october, and i thought pok and liyan is august 31, so i was wrong. so, only suihangs birthday, and thangs and adrianni, eh wait. thang and adrianni is OCTOBER, oh mann. ok, now not so broke, broke during october, shit. better start saving, and analysing to see what presents to get. ahahaha. ok. 9TH DECEMBER! that one also must rembmer. very impt. hah. SERIOUSLY! its impt k. hahahahahhahaahhahahahahahah duh whatever. ok im feeling very bored. oh ya, if there was no happiness in the world, would there be sadness? no right, what would sadness be defined as then? hmmm,
OHYES, i have decided alr! im going to be a JOURNALIST, which means i hafta take up humanities and lit, but humanities is SO BORING, haha. speakng of humanities, keith is one horny bastard. (:
ilu`

hurh? either blgoger changed template agin or my internet explr is nt working properlyy. ok, HI! my internet is working now, afer excessive probing among my wires and pulling and re pulling and basically having fun. I DO HOPE I GET INTO YEP, i wanan go. cuz u see, if i go YEP, when i come back, i leave immediately for new zealand. funkae huh? overseas and more overseas. hmm, everyones talking abt guardian angels, my theory is, your angel is always there with you, to catch you when you fall, protect you from the devil and his minions. but when you choose, with ur free will given my God, to commit crimes, your angel will nto assist. for example, if u go practice black magic and a demon enters you, your angel will not protect you, because you have chosen to reject its protection. get it? good! haha kaes~ bye

I CANT STAND MY FUCKING INTERNET, ON AND OFF, LIKE FUCK LA, CAN EVEN USE FOR 10 MINUTES IN A ROW WITHOUT IT FUCKIGN UP, IVE PRACTICALLY REBUILT MY COM AND ITS STILL FUCKEDUP . bitch

askldjfklsdjfl;skjf I AM SO ANGRY. my fucking internet keeps screwing up keep signing out FUCK FUCK FUCK I CANNOT STAND MY INTERNET. IM GOING TO GET A FUCKING NEW COMPUTER.

9:28 PM

20040824

wth man, just argued with my dad just now over hitler. i mean, every one views him as some meesed-up dead ass loser sadistic and stuff. essence of evil, you get the gist. but i mean, he isnt all that bad, anti semitism was NOT created by him. he was theo nly one who dared to stand up for his beliefs. i mean, how many ppl would dare to do that knowing that it was poking death in the nose. you gotta give him credit. he was also raised in this really screwed up family, you cant expect the most perfect person to come from a family where the dad beats up the mum, refuses him anything. he experienced no love at all, how can you love if you dont know what it is, so he became a person living in a world where love was shaded out. give him a break, he did what he thought was right. many ppl believed that way too but it was just his intensity of reaction. im not saying genocide is good but every person has varying degrees of reaction and his was just more wild. personal eye witnesses recalled that he was warm, charming and had a good sense of humour. he wasnt teh cold, ruthless and murderer you think he is. to him, what he was doing was right, if someone caem into your house, and starts using your computer, you television, your bed, your food, youd want it bck right. same thing. in his view, the jews were doing just that, taking germanys work spaces for themselves. they became rich, lived extravagantly while the germans lived in poverty and pain. he fought not for his own, but for his country, he wanted what was best for his country, he didnt want glory and fame, he was himself a self proclaimed hard man on the germans, he wanted what they had back. he did it for germany, having a strong sense of nationalism. he just wanted what was meant to be for his country. please dont get me wrong, he isnt right in killing the jews, he just had to milden his reaction, and he would have made a great man.

______ and ya reading ppls blogs recently, i kinda made my own thinking and just thought id share it. if you DO NOT WANT TO READ PLEASE DO TURN BACK.
___on someones blog, im not against that person or anything, but it was mentioned ' is the friendship worth the pain and suffering' . in my very professional opinion, friendship is the second strongest and closest bond one can have, second only to love. in some instances, even far surpassing the strength of the bond of love in this society where true loev has been lost. friendship comes on a base of mutual trust, care, concern and enjoyment of presence. a true friend goes through thick and thin with you, is there no matter what, knows the limits, and i mean. he becomes like ur other half. friendship so strong you would die for that person. to risk everything you have, for that person. friendship can not go stronger than that and letting a friend suffer when you could have even a minute chance of preventing it, would be evident of shallow friendships. maybe a selfish one. friendship is worth almost anything to keep, pain and suffering, whats that compared the joys you get through friendship? are you willing to lose that friend because of a cowardly mindset. know that nothing impossible, so long as you are willing to put your all into it. even so much as it were, to not be able to succeed, you would have full satisfaction that all you had and would have has been thrown in and left nothing behind, and that it was not meant to be. but even 'fate' if you believe in it, which i do not, has its limits. who knows truly the power of man, not to destruct but to as one collective body, through bonds forged with suffering laced thickly in the process, create a better world in which pain has been ultimately purged, and where God walks with us along the right paths once again. coming back and concluding, friendships, no matter how small they may seem, are worth anything and everything. if you have nothing you would die for, you have nothing to live for. pain and suffering are nothing if you would just look at it the right way, and stop looking down on yourself.

___ok, this is extra, but i mean, many ppl always look down on themselves just cos something ahs set them back. DONT, what point is there? if you would just learn pickup urself up and continue and just ignore that problem, it would be so much better huh? dont let urself think that anyone else could do a better job doing what ur doing. be yourself, dont change, who else is better qualified?

8:15 PM

jsdhfioasdhjfiofjalifjasdiofhdlkdhaiudhakjdh! Fucking shit man!!!!!!lshdfsaldhasjkldhasjkdhaskdhgakfahkdfjahdl.
Feeling so stressed out again these days. Maybe cause da 2 damn hardest tests 2 me are coming up.... Oh man, I better do good on these freaking shit.... I'm dead already. Everynight mug till like 2 and can't wake up in da morning. I'm fucking dead. But i guess this is da price i gotta pay for slacking 2 much the last damn semester. FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK. I'm so damn stressed. Then again we got dat MI script coming up next week. How come 2 groups get 2 do it 3 days after us. Not fairr....
Fuck. i shall no longer complain now. Must think of good shit 2 write bout. Oh, u fucking overstretched my stitches yesterday night. Bleed a little but it looks so freaking cool now. Its lie 2 pieces of meat stuck 2gether using a damn piece of string. hahah. Then also i don't want da doctor 2 fucking take it out. I think its gonna b fucking painful. shit.....
I wanna play softballlllllllllllll. Imiss training. I miss wacking balls 2 singtel. Hitting HOMERUNS(dear pork) n throwing n gaying around wit hang. Life is so mundane these days... Mug, go 2 skol, mug again and again. I miss my normal fun loving life!!!
K enough of shit. Going back 2 class now. Peace!!!!!!

10:58 AM

20040823

sadfkljasl;dkfjskladfjasdklfjasdkljf yaye me. today needed to destress so played neopets and I GOT A DESERT LUPE. so sexaae. hahah k whatever. I AM NOT CHILDISH. neopets helps destress and besides, im getting bored of unreal tournament way too easy. last frag count in one game 79. runner up 23. OH WOW. ahhaha. k gg to play again. make some new record or something. ;alsdfja;sdlfj LEE HSIEN LONG ROCKS ASS

5:47 PM

20040822

blah, da last few days were super mundane. Got practically nothing 2 do beside math assignment and mugging 4 da math test coming next week. Shit, stayed up till 4 am yesterday 2 do da damn math assignment.
Don't noe wy but i just don't seem 2 b myself these days. I don't noe if there are things happening inside my head or its just things that affected me. I don't really noe. Shit, sometimes i just feel super hopeless!!!!!
Fuck man, wad da hell 2 do. I'm all stressed out again but then i made a promise 2 myself dat I won't snap at ppl. Doing it quite good now. Shit!!! FUcking shit, i must do good on all of my bloody tests man. I think i did quite good 4 litho test but u'll never noe. Fuck man, I don't wanna failllllllllllllllllllllllll.
Well, don't feel like blogging anymore. here's da song dat fit my mood now in a way i guess..

Robbie William
Something Beautiful

You can’t manufacture a miracle
The silence was pitiful that day.
And love is getting too cynical
Passion's just physical these days
You analyse everyone you meet
But get no sign the loving kind
Every night you admit defeat
And cry yourself blind

If you can't wake up in the morning
Cause your bed lies vacant at night
If you're lost, hurt, tired or lonely
Can't control it, try as you might
May you find that love that won't leave you
May you find it by the end of the day
You won't be lost, hurt, tired and lonely
Something beautiful will come your way

The DJ said on the radio
Life should be stereo, each day
And the past that cast the unsuitable
Instead of some kind of beautiful, you just couldn't wait
All your friends think you're satisfied
But they can't see your soul no, no, no
Forgot the time feeling petrified, when they lived alone

If you can't wake up in the morning
Cause your bed lies vacant at night
If you're lost, hurt, tired or lonely
Can't control it, try as you might
May you find that love that won't leave you
May you find it by the end of the day
You won't be lost, hurt, tired and lonely
Something beautiful will come your way

It'll come your way
It'll come your way some kind of beautiful
It'll come your way some kind of beautiful
It'll come your way some kind of beautiful
It'll come your way

All your friends think you're satisfied
But they can't see your soul no no no
Forgot the time feeling petrified
When they lived alone

If you can't wake up in the morning
Cause your bed lies vacant at night
If you're lost, hurt, tired or lonely
Can't control it, try as you might
May you find that love that won't leave you
May you find it by the end of the day
You won't be lost, hurt, tired and lonely
Something beautiful will come your way
You won't be lost, hurt, tired and lonely
Something beautiful will come your way

5:40 PM

20040821

l;jl;gjlajl;djgl;dfjgl;dfjgkl;djfgdfjl;gjdl;gj;wjersdfl;jsl;kdfjl;askdjf;lsdjfl;sjkfk how/
too tired to continue writing the story. i'll start again tomorrow or smth dno.a jalkjfljawof erioiorjern n i want to watcha movieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee how. die. no time la stupid math test, if not watch on tuesday. sigsioghsdogjsoi g dont feel like blogging anymore aefkl;asdfjl;ksd fabyE

10:29 PM

20040820

al;sdfjksdl;jfl;asd flkasdj fFUCK POK. =D ok sch suckss our spire is like BOOOOOOOOOOO and suihang and pok went ARGHHHHH then we went coroOOOO then shoot LAAAAAAA then went home for a while the go tuition then come back and here i am tadah! so fun. oh ya, at NTUC we got this damn special thing for pok. its the DAWN SWEETENER. 70 cents only. :D:D:D

10:55 PM

20040818

Dashing through the stormy night, Timmo Supremo and his trusted dog, Captain Vietnam dash through the stormy night. It is a stormy night, not good for dashing. but dash they did, and crash they did, too.
they were on their way to their fat mobile, which brought them wide and far. having no means of transport, they had easily hijacked santa's sled, which was pathetically hard to manouvre. plus the fact captain vietnam had been at the wheel, there wasnt much of a chance of survival. anyways, on the fat mobile, they travel towards the fleet of Ngised ships, being black, sleek and powerfully powerful. it was undetected. and this tiem REALLY undetected. let us skip the boring parts, they remain at a distance, travel to fleet, enter ship.

___ Entering the ship, Timmo Supremo slipped into the shadows and with his tan skin easily camouflaged. He leaned against the cushioned wall and breathed deeply, waiting for his partner to come. Captain Vietnam came soon after, cat-walking in with much style and to many wolf-whistles. suddenly, the wall moved!
there was a large rumble, and two arms grabbed the great timmo supremo. stunned, he used his great strength to break away. the battle-strong warrior easily broke the grip of the aggressor.

ITS ME, came a rumbling voice, out of the shadows stepped the famed butler, Lord Ghanesh.

Timmo supremo was stunned, here was this person, or thing, with a more advanced camouflage than himself. That was not possible, even his infragreen special eyes had not detected the Lord Ghanesh, butler of the Maid. after much talk and cock. (ORGY!) the three warriors ended their happy reunion. they discovered they all had different motives, but the same objective. Lord Ghanesh wanted the Ngised to lay off his food, captain Vietnam wanted to just kill, the blood lust monster. and of course, righteous Timmo Supremo wanted to save the world and provide everlasting jsutice the way US never did.

the three masked and musked warriors sped off into the darkness in search of the evil villian. Impulse leaving a clear scent behind. to be continued.

ok wdv la. did this in a rush. cuz i still have MI caal and math and dunno what else to do. alot of work la. SHIT. byee

quote of the day.

[08:14:12 PM] +/ we all lo: aww geeeeeeeee

ORGY

8:00 PM

20040817

ok. no time left alr. only short while more on the net. and i need time to do smth special. involving usa softball team pitcher! WHEEHEJio;asdfjio;asdfjoasdijf;aiosdjf; im crazy alr.

9:58 PM

20040815

like what the hell la. blogged than stupiod blogger dno why lost the page. so angry. now must redo. anyways. must continue the story which proved to be a mega selling hit


….. the cocklets lived on happily, unaware of the disaster impending, doom hanging on a breakable thread. Doc Pok, worried not so much about the cocklets, but rather for the Star, which brought him Dawn, which depended heavily on the survival of planet Nosredna. Running out to the streets, he began shouting loudly “ Cocklets! Doom is upon us, the Ngised have begun an invasion! “ the cocklets, being peaceful creatures, believed him not. For the Ngised have always proved to have peaceful relations with the cocklets. Rather, they believed that Doc Pok was just talking pok again. “ you ah! Talk pok again. “ went the loving adorable creatures.

____i speak the truth cried pok. But no one believed. It was up to him only, and only him, no one else, just him, solely him, purely him, only him, totally him, absolutely him, ultimately him, positively him, only him who could save Nosredna. Hurrying into his secret lab. The one no one knew about. He opened drawers and drawers of deadly weapons. Alarms rang throughout his lab signaling that weapons were being drawn. Grabbing the most high powered rifle he had, double rubber band loaded catapult with high tech grip to maximize fire power and jet pack for extra range. No batteries included. Running to his spacecraft, the Mercedes e-50000000 SUV with 8.7L capacity, he threw his rifle on. Blasting off towards the looming, approaching ships, he gulped. And in a moments rush, he farted. Doc Pok floored the accelerator! The ship took off at nearly 48 km/h. the G forces pressed down on him, he was pinned to his chair, he couldn’t move. The expansive sky remained as large as ever, with a jolt of realization, Doc Pok released the emergency brake and took off! So fun!

____Approaching the Ngised Ships, they opened fire. BANG BANG BANG. Rubberbands shot toward him at high speeds! He immediately began NETBALL maneuvers. Ngised Evasion Tactics against BALListics.
-squat with butt sticking out-
____ Successful! He inched closer (just an expression). With a soft thud, he docked with the Ngised ship. Drawing his dark saber, he leapt in, his lab coating flowing behind him, the wind rustled from his cloak. Alarms rang everywhere, Doc Pok strode in with confidence, spying a dark room, he crept in. seeing a sign on the wall. He walked closer and read it.
____HAHA KENA JACKED! YOU JUST WALKED INTO THE PRISON CELL

____ dawn! damn! Pok exclaimed! As the the door behind him closed, he leapt forward. Too slow. Lousy reflexes. Doc Pok was not set back. Leaning back. He adopted a squeaky voice and said. Yes, I am the keymaker, ive been expecting you. He took out a key and unlocked the door. Turning to face the dark silhouette quickly, he saw a masked Ngised. The battle of the darksabers began.

____slash! Slosh! Slush! Slesh! Slash! Slosh! Slish! The fight was furious, it was every Doc for himself. Suddenly, in a moments stupidity (not that Doc Pok was ever smart) his arm got cut off. But luckily he pushed the masked mugger down. The masked dude shouted! STOP! Dont you remember me Doc Pok, I am your father. Doc Pok broke down and cried. And the two fighters had a happy reunion.

____ Immediately, Doc Pok began tactical negotiations. He being the evil bastardly bastard he was,only obsessed with dawn, was willing to help the Ngised! Oh no! what will the cocklets do? They have no heroes! But theres a saying. When theres trouble, a hero or heroes or heroin will arise! And this time, a new hero has arisen. Catch the next episode for the all powerful,

Timmo Supremo and his trusted aide and sidekick, Captain Vietnam.

note how eminent Timmo Supremo is pls. to be continued. TML! awlejfl;asdfjasdkl;jf

9:29 PM

20040814

ok. start blgogging alr. cuz just now got distracted by gay sec sch friend. then distracted by friendster. distracted by ghanesh then distracted by his cousin then ghanesh then his mum then start bloggin. ok. ahaha i said slut hey! to ghanesh then turned out his cousin was there so funy. then complain to his mum and im sincerely hoping he'll get punished like shit. ok whatever.asfa slkfjsdlfjasl;dkfjs im goign to go watch olympics now. did you see singapore team? my friends there ok..as dfj;asdklfjl;askdfjklasdfj asd penis. must go watch him swim. lskdfjioasjfoawijfioewjfaw i think swimaslfj snot sure. shit. ahahah dno what event hes going for. sdfljsl;df crap. athens so crappy the language asojdf;lsjdfl;sdjkf sdflj so bored la. not fun blogging anymore. asdfsdfassssssssl;jkk my keyboard f like going to fade alr. asdflksjdfl;sjffff. ok. im going to write a shrot story on the sport.
THE COCKLETS
Once upon a time, there was a world called Nosredna. on it lived the peaceful and harmonious race, the cocklets. They were bringers of peace and mediators of war. Many a time, the universe had been saved by them. The cocklets in appearance themselves exuded peace and love. It was hard not to feel loving and peacful when you see the peacefull and loving cocklets. They were yellow and soft, round, with the most adorable eyes you've ever seen. tiny arms stuck out always with a scroll in hand. the LOVING AND PEACEFUL scroll.
Not mroe than 17823947123904790237419028374 billion billinion light years away, lived the vile and evil Airotciv, they were tall and gangly creatures. Airotciv was a dank place. grime, slime and rime. violent creatures, the Ngised were often itching for war. constantly searching for reasons for invasion. war, horror, terror, and most of all misery.
One bright and cheery day, the birds flying merrily in the air, the Star rose in a bright mix of crimson and gold. it was DAWN. Doc Pok, founder of many theories and famous supervillian, had been waiting patiently. At long last, a glimpse of dawn for him. he stared at the star. admiring its beauty. it was constantly on his mind. it was just so beautiful, not a day passes when Doc Pok does not think of her oops it. he was hopelessly obssesed. yet. he dared not venture any closer. cowardly. specs began to appear on the star. as they grew larger, doc pok's fear grew larger too. it didnt take a moron to tell they were big assed Ngised-ships.
grabbing his hair and running arnd wildly, doc pok exclaimed' oh no what do we do' war had descended the peaceful land of Nosredna. up to doc pok to warn the civilians. and him being the onyl evil rebel and supervillian who had weapons, ultimately, fight and save the dawn. oops i mean day. kk continued tml or smth cya!

10:02 PM

20040813

yay. officialyl finished studying for chinese. so im off to slack and sleep early. jsdfkljasdl;fjl;asdkfjsdodosdifj asdoifjopawei jaweoifjoai cvmks i just yawned asdlfjsdl;kfjasl;kfjs then today. in tuiton. the guys behind me were like comparing who had the smelliest fart. it was bloody disgusting. sldkfj asdkl;fjklsdj ffit was like this guy had this really high pitch fart. and everyone heard. at least i did asdkl;fjasdkl; fYUCKS sdkl;f askl;dfjskld faskdl;f sklf ;dfjkl;sdjfl ok. ive blogged enough already. bbbyee

10:20 PM

20040812

alsdkfjaskl;djfkl;asdjfl;sdj WOON JECK YOU BITCH. if u receive that email from someone saying what friend from anderson of tims doing shit survey. DO NOT BELIEVE IT. IT WAS NTO ME. it was woonjeck. sdjfl;asdjfl;sdkajfl;ahes pretending to be me cuz he thinks that u will believ it or smth and hes just plain retarded. dlskfjasdkl;fjskl;dfjskl;ajdfkl;asdjf DO NOT THINK ITS ME. I"LL GET HIM TO CONFESS> JUST WAIT

10:12 PM

oh yea mannn. nv use the net for 2 days alr. so niceahahaa ya. nth much happened la. at least nth intersting enough for me to want to come online to blog cuz if there was anything really interesting i would be motivated enough to blog and thus come online instead of turning on my computer and going to sleep with the com on which burns alot of energy because my com is really too high powered with too much specs that i rarely even need to use for example i have my 1g graphics card when i hardly play any games and sometimes accordin to the shop manager or smth i never use the card so in the end it idles too much and cuzes my com to hang and in other words realyl fuck my com up which is the current stte its in u know i caaaanot connec to net cuz i havent updated my com anti virus cuz it sometimes hangs the com because as i said the graphics card is too high powered and sometiems the ram cannot cope with the programs i run and the graphics card maintainence. so yea whatever shit la tim. i still ened ppl for rugby. need to find my err. co-founder and talk to the teacher soon.l oh wells. must join k? girls can join too

9:52 PM

HAHAHAHA! HAHAHAHA! HAHAHAHAH!
In bytz now. Nothing much 2 do so decided 2 blog! Well, feeling damn tired now don't noe wy but i think i overdid it yesterday in trainin. Shit, now my freaking stomach hurts lie crazy..... Nick, I'm gonna make u pay 4 dis... Makin me run wen my stomach is lie so freaking full. Darn!!
Anyway, trainin yesterday was damn fun for me. I think i just set da new NJ softball record by smashing 4 balls into Singtel. HAHAH! By da 4th year I'll try smackin it 2 Chinese High or sth. Weeee, my arm is getting stronger these days. Well, back 2 da ball smashing business, I hit 2 outside da fence of Singtel while the other 2 went in and 1 of them did somethin funny 2 some funny funny thing therefore makes some funny funny guy mad cause his funny funny thing is 3 years old. hehehehe!!! Then it comes 2 pitch battin, Li Yan thinks dat its impossible for me 2 hit a homerun cause I'm n0t as big and tall lie her beloved brother(ALEXXXXXXXXX). But den I showed her that even a small guy lie me can surely smack homerun one by smashing one all da way 2 da outfield. Almost 2 da track. *SAD*. nah, but den I can't b 2 proud of it since Ms. Lim pitching is consider damn slow so I still got a long way 2 go. 4 years ya........
Today nothing much happen i guess. Just got da normal stuff only. arg, my stomach hurts again. Gonna sleep now. *PEACE*, nah, its more lie *WAR* these days!!! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

11:56 AM

20040809

if ur wondering why i wrote that last night. DONT. cuz i was just feeling apologetic. after realising that sometimes, my 'teasing' goes overboard. or sometimes my insults hit something sensitive. and when that happens u kinda lose that friend. so ya. wa jsut apologizing. and if i HAVENT ever insulted u or offended u before. save the apology for another time when i DO insult u somehow. which WILL eventually happen. infact. all the girls can take that apology. cuz i think at one time another. ive called ALL of you bitches. ahahahahahhahahahah. byyeeeee

12:01 PM

20040808

oh yes. id like to apologize to everyone and i mean everyone for being a bitch and a bastard. for being irritating. for being insensitive. for being unreasonable. for being egoistic. for being me. SORRY if ive offended anyone in anyway. sorry for being shallow
SORRY for ignoring anyone or appearing to be narcisistic
SORRY for being self-centerd and only focussed on myself
SORRY for doing anything wrong
SORRY for swearing and cursing everyone other word
SORRY for calling names
SORRY for not being there
SORRY for not being what im supposed to be
SORRY for being a rotten friend
SORRY for being insensitive

SORRY SORRY SORRY

7:45 PM

today went botanic gardens to rot. for 2 hours++. it was doubleplus good.. had lotsa fun. but there were soo many bitches ard. really started to lose my temper.. lucky thang was there ya? managed to help me be happy again. hahaha. stupid bitches. go die. ROAR. ok. much better. oh ya. speaking of those bitches. they were sitting in front of me during the dim sum dollies crap. roar roar aoriaoraoroaroaroaoroar. so stupppidd. so irritated.. burn. okay! feeling betterr. had so much fun at the botanic gardens! playing with thsoe toxic uranium active roterioaeoiroier balls. and confusing small little boys with true knowledge. ahahah. k evil me. then went coro eat with thang. we talked and i really mean talked. i noticed that we always talk best when we're alone. hhhhmmmm. and realise smth shitty. all the foreign currency i saved up is now VOID. cuz of the BLOODY EUROS. raharharhaljfl;asdjfsad take over everything then not in use anymoreajfl;sdjfkl;asdjfl bloodyyy europe. ok then erm. went home, slacked tuition then home nth till now i guess. ARGH. my stupid rugby dream isnt going well. only 8 ppl + now. i need MOREE. join pls. rugby is a very nice sport. requries high level team work, strength, skill and much more! pls help meee! rugby is a ruffian sport played by gentlements ok. remember. so JOIN. its NOT dangerous. u get to relieve all ur STRESS and whatever shit. so do JOIN RUGBY. hoi hoi hoi!

7:27 PM

20040807

blah. so bored todaee. woke up at 10 did nth till 2. went out with my bro to go play pool. i PROMISE i was off-form yest. shot like shit. todae was at least better. havent played for nearly 2 weeks. so fun. hahaaha. so fun mann yesterday. left house at 6 then went to sch for the crap thing then errm. went out to meridien. played 2 hours of lan. i love battlefield when theres alot of ppl. i always get top fragger. ok. not always. 3 out of 4 times so far. so ha! and i wasted alot of frags killing my own teammates. hahahaa. then went cine to look at movies and dont have. my bro was at cine too. but didnt see him. brought the 3 guys to play pool. thang booked ticket and we played. i must repeat. i was OFF-FORM. ahaaahaa. then then then err. went cine again. but no time to watch movie. so went arcade and no nice games. so went to eat at yoshi then 7-11 slurpees! aft that pok was supposed to ask dawn to go esplanade but DIDNT. so i kicked him out and he formed his turtle shit gang. then thang wasted a total of 52 minutes of our lives. went espland. and went rooftop which was so fun. i was training thang to ask girls to be his girl
1. Stare at the ocean for 10 seconds.
2. Turn and say. ive been thinking for very long. and blah blah. be my gf. blah blah'
the dumb arse took out his phoone and timed 10 seconds. he over shot. and stuttered. against ME a guy. omg hes a failure. HAHAHA. it was so fun man. he was like tim ive been thinking and will u marry, be my oops.' dumb arse laaa.

dim sum dollies. NICE NICE NCIE! hehhh. so nice. i cant rember the exct scenes but it was damnnn funny. couldnt stop laughing. and thang had his eye candy. and pok had his eye candy. and so funny. regarding tinhos msges he received. but sadly i got no eye candy. LMAO. ok then after that.wanted to go out. but others told parents gg home. so i caleld and said gg home too. then they said dno what change mind and gg out. ARGH. so in the end didnt go out. went home. so boring. and today. ya. u know what happened.
tml. got that stupid botanic gardens thing. i hafta take 3 buses to get there. and must be there at 7 so must leave at. 5.30 or earlier so sad. shit la hshit la shit la shit la shit la shit la shit la.

oh ya. one more thing. me thang and pok are the closest friends ever. we are that 3 friends in dimsum dollies. so nice. so must! must! not take anyone away.

and realised ive been really critical nowadays. esp against girls. hahaahaa. dunno why la. just keep insulting them. in front or behind them. dno whats wrong with me. oh wellsss. change
byee

8:17 PM

Well, lets recap wadeva happened in da last few days or so.....
First, on Thursday we got da softball mania thing. Its so darn cool k.... I mean we got only 4 teams n as da leader of da COCKLETS i believe dat we must at least get 2nd place or better. hahaha, so our first game was against REg team, we did quite well xcept 4 Pok wo is so freakin stressed out n made don't noe how many errors..... In da end we manage 2 beat them 4-2. Not bad. Second game we played wit da liondance team, I gotta say this is the worst game 4 pok. Made 5 errors n cost us a lot of runs..... Wy da hell is he so stressed out???? Must b because Dawn is lookin at da goal post!!!!!! In term of battin we did damn well, n as a fan of Derek Jeter i did da same thing dat Jeter always do, which is hitting single n double only, no need 4 homerun.... Derek Jeter rox!!!
Well, i don't really wanna talk bout da last game. Not because we lost 2 them. Not because i didn't play very well. All i wanna say is dat out of all the thing in this world, I hate cheaters. I mean if u can beat me fair n square i'll respect u 4 dat but once u crossed da border n cheat, u'll get some fucking hostile reaction from me. Sorry 2 all da seniors if I snapped at u guys. Arg, I FUCKING HATE CHEATERS. U noe wad, the more i talk bout dis, da more pissed off i am so......
Friday got da NDC thing, quite fun... in a way i guess. Lignum got last 4 da NE trophy thing.... ah, never mind, we'll get them next year.
DIM SUM DOLLIES roxxxxxxx!!!! I was in "heaben" most of da time. Damn how come i'm still obsess wit da Filippino racist shit. hahah, "neber" mind. well, i gotta say dat da show was damn good. After da show, tried 2 take a cab back but it seems like 4eva so decided 2 take da 174 instead. Da worst thin is dat i overslept on da damn bus n ended up near KAP. Like WTF man, got back at 11: 50. 10 minutes later den i'll have gotta sleep outside i guess. HAHA. Tired, wanna sleep already. Peace!!!!!!!!

2:10 PM

20040805

oh yea mann. today softball mania. so stupid. only 4 teams. first team we played against the other ip class. ok only la. i screwed up. second team we played was the lion dance team. thang said go easy but secure the first inning. i thought he said let them win the first inning. so when they whacked a home run, i missed the ball pok threw onpurpose then got scolded. so sad. screwed up. again. then later played the 'pro' team. the won us at least. fair or not. but we played a good game. that we gotta admit.
GO COCKLETS.

oh yes. rugby got quite a few ppl alr. so pls help me. need a few more only

9:04 PM

20040804

i want to set up rugby! somebody helelp! scot me tinho and who else! neeed 15. think can find a teacher i/c. so please heeelp! ples pls pls rugby! yay me rugby!

9:43 PM

20040803

so tired today even tho sch wasnt that long. no idea why either. i tot i slept enough. just soooo tired tired tired tired. i want to sleep. yea man. im going to keep it up. stop msging anyone alr. only neccessary then msg. hahaha. so far not bad kaees. vvery hard to control. 14 msges in 3 days. newest record. smashed my old one. used to be 300+ in 3 days. yay me. anyways. today after the capt ball thing very fun. went arnd pulling everyones pants down. pull pull pull. then later played 'rugby' the last part i was running towards the grandstand. and pok was standing there. i wish he had really tackled me. just feel like ramming everything and everyone blah blah. yawn yawn. anyways. i want to set up a rugby team. just not enough ppl. sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh. anyone wants must tell meee! rugby rugby rugby. yay yay rugby

10:21 PM

20040802

ok. wont write much abt what happend tdy. just read others blogs. poks and read thangs below. so tired. jsut finished compiling everything for cold war and gaza strip. so tiring man. ok eeerrrrmmm. what happened. oh ya. one thing must mention. POK's lan very pro, esp at battlefield 1942, not bad kaees. he emerged 1st in frags, top fragger once out of three matches. i wont say who won the other two, too embarassing. then Unreal Tournament. disappointed me manns. after all that time he spends playing onlien with me. he still sucks immensly. 4 vs 2. pok thang scott and reggie vs me and cil. we almsot won la. lost by 1 ball cuz not enough ppl to guard the place. cool enough k. i was the only one who knew how to use the movement combos everything well enough. hahaha. go TIM. top fragger for the deathmatch later too. but that one abit stupid and cheat one. i always kill when two ppl fighting so lotsa free frags tho they think they kill each other. how dumb. always double kill double kill multi kill. go TIM. ok enough of ego boosting.


he leapt down from the edge, rolled and pressed his body flat against the wall. All in one lithe, fluid motion. His pursuers made no effort to remain undetected, crashing through the branches, unanimously approaching him. Death was knocking. He had been running for far too long, it was too tiresome. A never-ending pursuit. Till the blood from his veins soaked the earth, gushing forth with sorrow. No, there would be no peace. It was a good day to die, nothing more bounded him to this miserable place. Deftly drawing his blade, he turned and slipped into the shadows. Take as many down with him. Waiting in the dark, a seeming calm transcended. All he had to remember to do, was breathe.

fiction fiction fiction too bad I cant write better stuff.

10:25 PM

yay. 2day was damn fun. thx to da canoeist that is. Hahaha, got half day so that mean i only gotta take Wp n Ih. So funnnnnnnnnnn, hope da canoeist keep winning. U go guys.
Then after lesson we decided 2 check whether toy r us got wiffle but 2 my suprise da whole s'pore got no place dat sale wiffle ball. Wad da shit!!!!!
Then go orchard n eat Booger King. Meet Cil n Scoot there. But there was dis one freaking scary guy that look absolutely gay, n i think he is also. He kept on looking at me, TIm and Tin Ho then he does this freaky smile. I was damn scared. Eventhough i might act like a faggot sometimes but then meeting a real one is totally different.....
Then we all went 2 meridien 2 play lan. weee, i think B.F rox..... Especially those suicide mission that me n Tim did. So funnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. Afterward we went Forum n got this funny packet that got 3 funny things in it. hahahaha....... We accidentaly saw it really. Then we went 2 toy r us 2 look at stuff only, played some X box n PS 2 games.
Finally i got my National Pride magazine. hope its good, gonna read it later since there;s no hw 2 day......
But then out of all this fun and laughter, I still feel quite sad n piss off. Well, I'm not gonna tell the whole freaking world bout this, I'm just gonna freaking keep it 2 myself............ Darn, still don't have a chance 2 show how right u r since there's no darn trainin 2 day. Well, we'll c soon I guess.
Arg, this song quite suit the mood that I'm having.....

D12- How come:


Chorus: Eminem]
How come we dont even talk no more
And you dont even call no more
We dont barely keep in touch at all
And I dont even feel the same love when we hug no more
And I heard it through the grape vine we even beefin now
After all the years we been down
Aint no way no how, this bullshit can be true
We family and aint a damn thing changed, unless it's you

[Verse 1: Eminem]
So young, so full of life in vibrant side by side wherever you weres ridin i went
So close, almost on some bonnie and clyde shit
When ronnie died you weres right by my side with a sholder to cry on
Tissue to wipe my eyes, and a bucket to catch every tear i cried inside it
You even had the same type of childhood i did
Sometimes i just want to know why is it that you surcame to yours
And mine i survived it, you ran the streets, i 9 to 5'd it
We grew up, grew apart, as time went by us, then i blew up
To both yours and mine surprises
Now i feel the vibe i just cant describe it
As much as your pride tries to hide it
Your cold, you touch its like ice
In your eyes is the look of resenment
I can sense it, and i dont like it

[Chorus]

[Verse 2: Kon Artis]
It was my dream at first to be on spittin a verse
On my own album with a deal but shit got burst
So i came out i woulda killed a nigga first'fore i let him disrespect me and check me over some worste
Some bitch that i wasnt with i would hit her then quit
But you would pull a talk with her and tell her she was the shit
I told you dont get involved with her, you was smokin the chron with her
Comin out of the bar with her stumblin half drunk
Like yall was husband and wife or somethin
But me catchin her fuckin other niggers musta hurt you pride or somethin
Cuz you wont fuck at the mouth with people like you wanted with me
When all i tried to do was show you that your bitch was shifty
And ever since the fans and all the shit that i produced
You actin like i aint you man and lyin like she can't be loose
But i am really you friend, i'm jus trying to tell you the truth dont hate the game or the playerthe one that's changing is you

[Chorus]

[Verse 3: Proof]
It gets lonly at the top cuz my homie had to stop
Now we actin like i gotta live only for the block
Homies in the hood only see me on the tube
So the guys up on the porch get to speakin all rude
Fools i used to rap with all expect magic
Like my finger get to snappin and *poof* it jus happen
But PROOF is jus actin out the part he was thrown
Shady made it so my babys aint starvin at home
See the devil in you grin since the ghetto we been friends
Whenever real intelligence thats forever till the endI be the hatred in your eyes and the satan in your lives
And wastin my times with these snakes in disguise(how come) when you talk its with bitter and spite
And (how come) it's my fault for what you did with your life
And everytime i go to hear you and play you look away
We barely embrace, you can't even look me in my face.

[Chorus]

Yep, this is quite the mood I'm in, piss offffffffff like a mother fucker!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

7:13 PM

20040801

Damn it I'm so easily piss off these days. It seems like the whole world is against me. Now that I found out ppl only seems 2 care but actually they r not. N suprisingly, they admitted it 2 me also. Well, guess i just learned another lesson in life. Never trust anyone fully, maybe xcept Tim n Pok only. The rest just go n die or sth. Oh, maybe not, I'll just have 2 show them how right they are when they freaking called me SELF DESTRUCTOR!!! Arg, anyway this song is quite nice, got it from Matt...

BSB- Drowning

Don't pretend you're sorry
I know you're not
You know you got the power
To make me weak inside
And girl you leave me breathless
But it's okay
Cuz you are my survival
Now hear me say
I can't imagine a life
Without your love
Even forever don't seem like long enough
Chorus
Cuz everytime I breathe I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
Keep drowning in your love
And everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
I keep drowning in your love

Maybe I'm a drifter or maybe not
Cuz I am only safe here floating freely in your arms
I don't need another lifeline it's not for me
Cuz only you can save me oh can't you see
I can't imagine a life without your love& even forever don't seem like long enough

Chorus

Go on and pull me under
Cover me with dreams
Love me mouth to mouth now
You know I can't resist cuz you'rethe air that I breathe

Chorus

Baby I can't help it
Keep drowning in your love
Got me drowningGot me drowning(Got me drowning in your love)
Baby I can't help it(Can't help it can't help it no no)
Cuz everytime I breathe I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
Keep drowning in your love
And everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by loveBaby I can't help it
Keep drowning in ur love

3:21 PM

HI. got so much work to do today plus later got tuition. too bad. going to chiong it all tonight. yay me

2:02 PM